jaOeL…

im hapi and cOntenteD.

thank yOu Sa Laat whO were there tO suppOrt me.

whO were there tO underStand me.

whO offered their shOuLderS sO can Lean On.

i Love yOu OL.

;)v.

Sad.
aLOne.
empty.
incOmpLete.
-that’s what im feelin’ right now.

but then,
i waS cOntented.
beCauSe of what other people always say–
"be contented."

i was so fool to do what i’ve done.
they were my friends.
they are my bestfriends.
they were a big part of my life.
they were connected to my body and soul.
–well actually, they’re my soul.

after what i did,
i felt like i lost one BiG part of my life.
them.

i dont know what came in to my mind.
i dont know why ive said those words.
i dont know why i continued doing that.
and even not saying my apology and forgiveness.

i wanted to say sorry.
but then who’d listen?
i dont know.
even if i say it,
i dont feel like its going to be fine.
ofcourse there’s got to be a GAP.

the reason?!?!
as i have said,
I DONT KNOW.

Okei,
I DO KNOW.
im just afraid.

im tired.
tired of

—im really weak.
i CANT.

SORI.

but IM CONTENTED.
NOT because i lost them.
but because i expressed what i felt.

but again, i feel incomplete.
im missing a part of my life.
the BIGGEST one.
it’s like breaking your boyfriend/girlfriend after having a strong relationship for 10 years.

waa…
im really very sori.
i know that you’re gonna read this.
im really very sori.
it’s okei that you’ll not gonna forgive me.

i just want you to know,
that…
the friendship that weve had will never die.
it’ll stay here with me.– FOREVER.
i wont take revenge.
im not gonna STAB YOU GUYS AT THE BACK, AGAIN. NEVER AGAIN.

another,–
THANK YOU.
for the-
:MEMORIES.
:THOUGHTS.
:CARE.
:EFFORTS.
:LOVE.
:FRIENDSHIP.

YOU GUYS WILL ALWAYS GONNA BE MY BESTFIENDS.
i never had somebody like you guys.
you’re the BESTEST! of all!
[bestness]!

;)v

that’s aLL.
thanx.